Friday, June 8, 2012

My Kind of Drug

People are made to be clingy. It’s a given fact. Those who can’t accept it are just in denial. We will always have this something or someone that we will make ourselves very attached to it. This is because whatever or whoever it is, whether it’s direct or not, we are getting this so called comfort zone whenever we’re insinuating it to ourselves. It’s like a drug that can be so addicting we might get devoured and can’t get out of it.

Everything that is too much is bad for us. Even too much kindness can dealt the same amount of pain. The greed for money can do a lot of unpleasant things. The thought of having more money means more problem is quite transparent in any way regardless how you’ve earned it. Too much devotion on your religion can make others think that you’re crazy. Having a high degree of faith can be harmful as you might instill in your mind that you’re more superior thinking that God is giving you more favor than to those who are around you. Hence, you’re invoking being a self righteous ass subconsciously. Even the simplest addiction for material things is unhealthy. Gadgets, bags, shoes etc. that can develop being envious to others, insecurity and discontentment. We all have our fair share of addiction in this world like a drug of our own. Like me, I’ve been addicted to this online game which I’ve been playing for roughly 8 years now. I have a lot of reasons why I treated this as my kind of drug. This is my way to release my stress from my work. It’s a cost saving habit during weekends rather than spending my money getting drunk on the club. It’s the only time I can fully have a mutual bonding with my brother whom is addicted to this drug too. Etc... You might also have these kind of pros why you’re so addicted to your own drug. Good reasons that covers the negative things your addiction can brought to you. Like going back to my own example, because of this addiction over this online game, little did I know that I’m becoming temperamental and it sucks up some of my quality time which I should be spending with my special someone.

If we’re going to base this kind of addiction to a person, another example is when you love someone who doesn’t love you. You may have no care for as long as you are showing that you love this person even if it means that you won’t get any in return. Not even a tiny echo  back or a glimpse from this person. Having the thought that it makes you feel happy doing such stupid things, you’re already blind to see the backlash out of it. And that is losing respect to yourself.

As humans, this is really unavoidable. We will keep on searching to find all the things that will make us feel happy because this is the only time we can declare that our lives are worth living. But in order to come back to our own senses, sometimes, we just need to find a way to maintain the balance. Rehab ourselves from this addiction and give a big slap to our faces… literally, for us to wake up.