Time for Goodbye. Good buy for Time…

Just this week one of my weaknesses in life passed away, my grandma. Who raised me since birth. I was  born as a blue baby, with a very weak lungs. I was born literally almost half dead that the doctor needs to do some pinching on my heart for me to normalize my status. So back then, my mom can’t bring me to Manila where the air is polluted and since she and my dad is busy at work and I need some extra care, my mom entrusted my life to my grandma and grandpa who’re living in the province. I stayed there until I was 5 years old and my mom and dad always visit me during weekends. I owe so much my life to her and seeing her passed away is like the same feeling I felt when my mom left us but it gave me the exact opposite realizations.

When my mom passed away 13 years ago, that triggered me to be strong in all aspects. All I was thinking back then is to strive for all the things that my mom would want me to be which during the process made me realize that the world will never be lean in your favors unless you do something about it. I channeled this heartbreaking event as my strength that whenever I will encounter different problems, I would just think that hey, I’ve already lost someone who’s dear to me, so what else would be painful than that? And seriously, it really helps me to surpass any difficulties that comes in my way. Although what I’ve realized is, because of this kind of thinking, I become quite a bit insensitive to others’ feelings. And I see myself as this kind of person with a very strong personality that whatever I will do whether it’s wrong or right, at the end of the day I can make it look right. So when the mother of my mom passed away recently, while I was making my last look at her, I felt like there’s a warm water suddenly flows all over my system. Like my grandma’s telling me to loosen up, soften up a little. Like it’s not all about me, and achieving what I want to be. And I began to remember all the good things she have told me which made me realize more what life is really worth.

You know, it’s really not bad to keep striving or pursuing what you want. But haven’t we realize that the more we keep on pushing it too hard, the more we just let time moves faster for us? We may kind of think that this is just normal, like we never realize how time flies so fast specially when we’re too busy at work or focusing too much on our lessons at school that we always tend to say this expression “Oh my God, it’s already Friday?” . Initially we take this kind of scenario as a positive thing that we always embrace the two rest days coming every week. But what we didn’t realize is that because of focusing too much on what we want and always being excited for the weekend, we let time eat our lives that quickly during the weekdays which is like fast forwarding our lives to its very end without us noticing it.

We were born because God wants us to embrace the total package of this world. The ups and downs. We are given time to value it and not to waste it for some things that we can never bring with us once we’re dead. The death of my dear grandma made me realize to look back and see what I have and already done with my life. The people around me, my friends, relatives and love ones who’re there for me despite of those moments when I’m letting time eat my life but they never get tired to be there for me. The people I’ve hurt but still giving me their unconditional love and support. My health condition that didn’t put me down. And I guess, it’s high time to buy time to give back and appreciate all these stuffs. Upon seeing these things, it suddenly slowed down my rushing time which made me become conscious of the true wealth I really have. Valuing every second of my life. Truly, it isn’t  money and material things that can bring you happiness, it’s the point in time you will learn how to accomplish full contentment in life.

Earth Gone Wild

Nowadays it’s really hard to measure what season are we really in. Summer heat is now expressing its presence ranging up to 40 degrees outside. But before you know it, rain will unexpectedly appear out of nowhere. Imagine the hassle of wearing your fad summer clothes while running on the pouring rain. We know what’s causing this weather confusion. We are aware of this Global Warming thing that’s going on. But less than 1% around the world is just doing something about it I guess.

The irony of hating what’s going on to our planet cursing the heat or the rain when in fact it’s because of us people why the earth’s going crazy as it seems. For the years that I’m living in this world, I haven’t seen not a single country who really takes seriously of this matter. Most of the posts and ads that I’m seeing imposing to save Mother Earth is just to make us aware. Making people aware is just an easy thing but wouldn’t be better if we can just use the word oblige rather than aware to take action on what’s happening to our home planet? Different religious groups are saying that the end is near that’s why we’re experiencing a lot of fortuitous wrath of nature nowadays. This may be true, but I’d rather believe that it’s because we’re taking earth for granted that’s why it’s losing its control. And again, I really don’t think that we really care that much about it.

If the government really care about Global Warming, why do they still continue to allow the tobacco business progress and let the manufacturing of cigarettes go on when we are all aware that smoking can messed up our ozone layer? Each pack of cigarettes now has this warning saying that it’s dangerous to your health. May I request to also include that it’s also dangerous to our planet? I find it weird that they’re putting this warning sign but they still allow the consumers to purchase it for the purpose of good income regardless of the threat it can dealt to us and to our environment. To smokers who’re reading this, can you imagine how small sacrifices such as quitting on smoking can do a lot of good things for you, for everyone? I’ve been a hardcore smoker before and it only damaged my lungs which caused me to undergo a year of medication to cure my tuberculosis during my younger years. The tree planting projects that a lot of pro-earth institutions are organizing is a good thing to make us aware that we really need to do something. It’s a good thing, but it’s not enough until the government or someone with a higher authority will oblige us “all” to do it. These simple things that we are already have the knowledge to save our planet needs some major push to put it into action which can benefit us all. Enough about other stupid ideas such as the Earth Hour. What’s the sense of closing all the lights for an hour to pay tribute to our earth? What good changes does it make? NONE! Worse is if you’re living in a third world country, it will only give the wandering thieves all over the metro a big opportunity to do their action in an hour!

Awareness is already not an appropriate word to save the earth. Because even a little kid knows how to bank the safety of our planet. Simple things like what I’ve mentioned above that can help. Simple things like not throwing your garbage anywhere which I’m always reminding myself. Don’t expect that there’s another planet for us that we can just transfer once we let this Earth died in vain. Well there might be, but not in our time. And it’s better not to expect nor hope but rather do something to prolong this big round thing that supports our existence for now.