Stuck in a Moment

After all the wrong or right decisions we’ve made, we tend to get numb on what is really wrong and what is right. Because we will end up asking ourselves if what we did is what we really should do. Consider this numb stage like as if you’re in a quicksand. The more you move, the more it devours you. And the more it pulls you down, the more you won’t find a resolve on it. I know some of you can get what I mean as you’ve also experienced the feeling of being stuck in a moment.

The moment of being neutral. The state of oneself where there is no good nor bad due to the confusion that still lingers in you after all that has happened. It’s like you don’t want to move nor do anything and just want to stay in your comfort zone for a while. This is a normal reaction and I guess this is better than letting yourself get traumatized which is more difficult to deal with. This is where you feel ok but not totally alright. Just letting all things around you come and go. Subtle emotion that doesn’t entertain too much happiness and sadness. It may sound insensitive, well, yes it is but it’s better to look that way than to be so lost and tormented.

To be honest, it may look like it’s quite easy to maneuver our life since we’re not doing anything to close the book, but it’s not. Well, escaping and not facing the real deal is, but bearing in mind that you’re just stuck in a moment means you’re not running away from anything or anyone. You just don't know the answer yet. And since you don’t know what to do, you might do things that would unintentionally hurt others, worse are the ones close to you. And we’re not just lame and lazy to clear everything but it’s just that we really don’t know how to solve it for now. And yes, others may see it as you’re being unfair of keeping them hanging with you but seriously, the answer hasn’t been born yet to set a bright light on the situation. So why put a verdict if it will just worsen things out?

If you don’t know what to do, then don’t do anything at all. Keep your cool and probably be selfish for now not minding the pressure around you until you find answers and set your plans. Try not to think too much and just try to live. For there will come a time that you will see the silver lining that will be your grace in this labyrinth situation.